Lots to be thankful for…

You know I spend a lot of my time, dwelling on things I wish would happen, regretting things I’ve done, and mourning for things that never were. But today it has struck me that I don’t seem to spend even half as much time, being thankful for the things that have happend, the good things I’ve done, and the things I’ve longed after and received. I have a lot to be thankful for – I have a nice life with a nice house, a car to travel in, a place at university studying  a subject I like, and friends and family who love me. The more I think of it the more I realise that almost every post is negative – always focusing on the aforementioned desires. So now, for once , I want to give thanks for everything I have, because there are so many things I seem to just take for granted. I have a house; a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in, I have friends who are there to pick me up when I fall, I have a family who love me unconditionaly and so much more.

So today I say “Thank You”. Thank you to anyone who makes my life what it is, for anything that makes my life what it is, and for all the things I so easily take for granted. I am not perfect, and I have dreams, hopes, asprations and things I long for. But maybe every once in a while I need to step back and stop yearning for more, and start appreciating what I have.

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Ok so not quite 1 a day…

Ok well I have decided to cut all pretence that I am ever fully gonna make an effort to write on this everyday cause guess what kids… my life just ain’t that interesting! So instead what I will do is basically what I’ve always done – post when the feeling takes me and most importantly when I have something worth saying! Today is one such moment… These days I constantly find myself getting hung up on dreams, fantasies, things I wish could be but that in reality, probably never will be. I despise myself for this. However despite being able to accept my short comings – this feeling, this happiness, this heart break, this joy, this sorrow – it really is just something I can’t/wont/am not ready to deal with. A very close friends once said to me that it is better to live knowing exactly where you stand, than to live dreaming of where you may be. I dunno is he is right or not… you tell me?

This week has lots to look forward too and lots not. I shal march on taking every day in my stride  – and so the constant search for a solution to my predicament, continues…

My 21st!

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