GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR – That will be all!
Lots to be thankful for…
2010 -
04.15
You know I spend a lot of my time, dwelling on things I wish would happen, regretting things I’ve done, and mourning for things that never were. But today it has struck me that I don’t seem to spend even half as much time, being thankful for the things that have happend, the good things I’ve done, and the things I’ve longed after and received. I have a lot to be thankful for – I have a nice life with a nice house, a car to travel in, a place at university studying a subject I like, and friends and family who love me. The more I think of it the more I realise that almost every post is negative – always focusing on the aforementioned desires. So now, for once , I want to give thanks for everything I have, because there are so many things I seem to just take for granted. I have a house; a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in, I have friends who are there to pick me up when I fall, I have a family who love me unconditionaly and so much more.
So today I say “Thank You”. Thank you to anyone who makes my life what it is, for anything that makes my life what it is, and for all the things I so easily take for granted. I am not perfect, and I have dreams, hopes, asprations and things I long for. But maybe every once in a while I need to step back and stop yearning for more, and start appreciating what I have.
x
Ok so not quite 1 a day…
2010 -
04.12
Ok well I have decided to cut all pretence that I am ever fully gonna make an effort to write on this everyday cause guess what kids… my life just ain’t that interesting! So instead what I will do is basically what I’ve always done – post when the feeling takes me and most importantly when I have something worth saying! Today is one such moment… These days I constantly find myself getting hung up on dreams, fantasies, things I wish could be but that in reality, probably never will be. I despise myself for this. However despite being able to accept my short comings – this feeling, this happiness, this heart break, this joy, this sorrow – it really is just something I can’t/wont/am not ready to deal with. A very close friends once said to me that it is better to live knowing exactly where you stand, than to live dreaming of where you may be. I dunno is he is right or not… you tell me?
This week has lots to look forward too and lots not. I shal march on taking every day in my stride – and so the constant search for a solution to my predicament, continues…
From February 2010, up to and including 5th March 2010
2010 -
03.05
Ok so 1 a day really aint working out for me… I dunno whether I don’t write cause I have nothing interesting to write about, or simply beacause I forget, or because some stuff I may find hard to write about. Or maybe a comination of all those? So here we go – gonna try again!
Since my last entry lots has happened – I’ve lost nearly a stone and a half in wait, I’ve been through a disciplinary hearing which it finally looks like I may come out the other side of without too many wounds… It’s been a busy time. If I aint sleeping I’m at uni, If I aint at uni I’m at work, If I aint at work I’m at the gym and on the odd occasion that I’m not doing any of these things – I’m getting a drink which I have less and less time for 
Got a busy week ahead of me – lost of coursework to finish… yay! Work is hell as ever – went for another Team Captain job that I didn’t get – dunno if I’ll apply again – we’ll see.
That’s really it in a nutshell tbh… Looking forward to a day off work. Will post again tomorrow… for sure!
Twitter Weekly Updates for 2010-02-14
2010 -
02.14
8th – 11th February 2010
2010 -
02.12
Ok so we’ve established that I am utter shite at this one a day thing, but I’m a busy man!
The past few days have been rather good. I’ve lost half a stone in a week! I really am addicted to the gym now! I love going and between that, uni and work – I find myself with little time to do anything else.
Due to and administrative error on my mum’s part I got my birthday present early… A private regi for my car – beast!
Talking of administrative errors… Still no exam results = raging!
Acht they’ll come in time a suppose!
I promise from now on I’ll make more of an effort to post daily… Speak to you in a few days then!
7th February 2010
2010 -
02.08
What a fucking night… I could actually leave todays entry there having said everything I need too – but I wont!
Some of my personal highlights; Scott doing the single ladies dance, James doing a gay as fuck dance, James looking like a fanny and James and Kirsten singing lady gaga at me! And that’s just the bits I can remember…
Woke up with another fucking shitty hangover – feeling as if my head was about to explode – I was close to tears it was the sore! Someone remind me – drink water before bed!
Work was a pain but rather quiet – caught up on my reading for uni… tomorrow (well today now) in for cognitive then need to go see about getting representation for this disciplinary committee. Tomorrow night is mines to do as I wish! 
Bedtime…
Twitter Weekly Updates for 2010-02-07
2010 -
02.07
6th February 2010
2010 -
02.06
Ok so I though I better write this now due to the slight possibility fact that I will be incredibly “inebriated” when I return home tonight!
But before that work This is a topic that gets me angrier every time I think about it – I have attempted to find a shift swap, I have offered to come in during the day, I have done everything I could possibly think of before finally asking if they could possibly change my shift, and when I ask them to move my shift forward – even just an hour – I get told that “Sorry the hot spots show it is going to be busy around the time your due in” and do you know what? I’d put good money on the fact that I’ll go in, it’ll be busy for a while then come 9pm – dead… and then I have to sit for a further hour and a half waiting to get out of that hell hole! Seriously – the sooner British Gas make the call the fucking better! Hot spots??!!?? Fucking Hot spots??!! I’ll leave a fucking hot spot up yer fucking arse once you finally manage to dislodge my foot from it ya bunch of fucking miserable bastards! (That may possibly be the most swear words I’ve written in a sentence… EVER!)
Phew… now that that’s off my chest. I am a little dissapointed, and I do say a little, that I have not had time to go to the gym today – I actually would go right now if it weren’t for work – another reason to hate the place! Not to worry – I’ll make sure I go tomorrow.
Yes, tomorrow will be productive once more, I have some stuff to read for uni, I’ll get to the gym then a nice early night…. All of this AFTER I get rid of my hangover!
Enjoy Saturday evening folks – if you’re drinking between 6.30 and 10.30… drink one for me!
